I hope during all of this that you are getting out every now & then and taking your mind off all of this hoopla, if you just focus on this situation your head will spin right off your shoulders.
You're allowed to take a break, hang out with friends, do something fun, blow some steam off at the gym, buy yourself a gift (you're worth it and start getting into that mindset again of placing value on your life).
I bust on you because I want you to develop a thick skin, I won't you to become stronger & independant and more confident - you can do it.
