Moving on with my life!

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The whole job things scares me. I think I would feel better had I better prepared myself 25 years ago for this. Back then...there were no worries. Things were set so I was told. Now just a few years ago I find out they aren't anymore. I think my mom feels guilty now, but she is just the type that won't admit it. She tries now to make it up in other ways which is nice, but that won't help me much when I am living on the street LOL. She is just that type of woman...nobody knows in our extended family that lives across the country that I am yet again divorced. Its embarrassing to her I guess.

I know I shouldn't harp on exh so much. I just do. I want baby to know her father, but I am not going to let it be a relationship like he has with his other girls. I would rather shield her from that. They have no trust in him, he has let them down again and again, they have seen horrible things because of him. The way its going...he will just get worse anyway.