I do feel so bad coming on here bashing him like he is some monster. He is not. Really. He has a lot of baggage. He is a highly intelligent, athletic person and without all the baggage getting in the way he has a big heart. I believe in him 100% and I always will. I love him. I am just very mad at him right now. I wish he would get it together and see what he is missing. If you walked up and met him tomorrow you would think he was the nicest guy on the planet. He is very charming. I really do want everyone to know that I have not once told him he is a bad father or husband. I have the utmost respect for him. I have said in the past that I was nag. I accused him of cheating at almost every job he was at. I did not feel confindence in myself but in retrospect he did not help the issue. I am not perfect. I am not a victim. I just want to turn my marriage around. I want him to see that it is not all my fault. So, I guess if he read some of the stuff I wrote he may be hurt by it and I feel so bad and guilty for that. I think he is a great man. I do. He is just lost.
