About three weeks ago the disrespect I was feeling started to overwhelm me.I spent days growing angrier and angrier and could literally feel my heart racing in my chest. One night I couldn't get to sleep because it was racing so fast. That is WHEN a light-bulb went off in my head and I realized that I could not do that anymore. It was just too unhealthy. I realized that I truly had to give it to God and leave it there. I cannot SOLVE my H , nor is it my job to. The battle is not mine, it is the Lord's. My job is to pray for H and live my life according to God's will for me.
So, I chose to walk my own path and leave my H to his path without tying myself up in knots about it. I am giving him what he wants - limited contact and a warm but business like approach. I have seriously limited interaction with him because this is what he wants, right? I am busy enjoying MY LIFE because I am done with the drama. I am letting him initiate the conversations and contact. I have done this before but then allowed mysellf to become caught back up in what he was doing, where he was going etc.I find I am in my healthiest state of mind when I just ignore his actions once they are not violating the boundaries I have identified to him. God doesn't want me to sit around wondering and worrying when I have given my problems to Him.
Sorry for hijacking your thread but I just wanted to let you know what has been working for me when I face the same issues you do. I have decided that I owe it to myself to enjoy my life.
BTW there is a song I just love. It is called "God favored me". I can't remember who signs it but you can find it on You Tube. Part of it goes "Will not bend, will not bow, God favors me"....
