Urgent Need Advice please!!

[Inaspin]

Hi FG

Thanks for your bluntness. I have had a tough couple of days, but even though the pain is there, at least my head feels allot clearer.

You are dead right about the fact that I will fail if I allow the fear to control me. I have acknowledge it, but I will refuse to let it control me any longer.

I have been in victim mode, "I will lose my S" "I will have to move" for the first time I actually realize what I have done in my M.

I realize now how little control over my emotions I have had my whole life. I have acted to many times out of fear, anger and guilt.

All I have done over the last 6 weeks is give my W more fuel to leave me, as my actions and reactions were the same as always.

We have MC today, and while I am braising myself for a tough time, I am not scared. I can only control myself, and will give my all, what my W does with it is up to her.

I had zero chance of saving my M the way I was acting.

I have a choice about How I go forward and I am choosing to be positive, What ever happens in the M, I need to stand up and move forward.