Oh my. Kids had the melt down of the century saying goodbye to their dad tonight. Finally all of the sadness and hostility came out directed toward him and he had a real tough time absorbing it.
I later updated him on how they were doing and he texted, "Thank you. That broke my heart. Love all of you"
Hmmm...that was not an accident including me. It is a mere breadcrumb and means little in terms of where we will end up but, with the money situation out of dire mode and the two of us really talking honestly, I am hopeful that things are looking up...I have a great stretch of time on my own now with the kids and it is a real opportunity to hone my detachment, work on myself and see what evolves. Patience has been the most elusive trait in this process. But, despite so many urgings from others to divorce that MF, as of now, I am glad that I have waited. I am so much more equipped to deal with the next phase be it coming closer together or drifting apart.
