Made it through another couple of days and starting to feel better. After feeling initially hopeful the Friday of counseling, I am back to reality. He isnt interested in contact with me--I have started to pay attention to his tone of voice and ways of behaving. He doesnt open doors anymore or pull out chairs, he cant wait to get off the phone, that gentle joking tone is gone from his voice. He seems like a nice stranger. I think he is still feeling very guilty but not trying to see if our relationship has any chance.
The DB counselor said he is addicted to the A and boy can you tell.
I wish I could stop loving him. I wish I could be angry with either of them--instead I am just sad and hurt.
Here's a somewhat silly quesion. What do you talk about with your H or W when you see them now especially if you are separated and dont know whats going on in their lives? He never ever asks about me, my job,old friends, or anything but the kids and dog and usually I volunteer the info on the kids. He will talk about his job, sporting events, what he did with his buddies, and golf ( too cold now) I have run out of happy, light things to say and ask about. I am not sure about talking about our adult kids as their is some negativit involved there with the kids toward him. someone said dont compliment his looks etc as that is pursuing him but that is how I flirt--by complimenting.
