If I wait for H to "decide", it could take forever.

I composed an email and couldn't hit send. Why!?! we haven't talked for over a week. The relationship isn't a relationship; it's all in my head.

Here's the email- Subject line "freedom"
Body- Freedom for both of us. I've decided I am done. Let's get things moving.

Is that too curt? AND WHY DO I CARE?

Me-43
H-46
M 12 yrs 7/09
T 15
2 grown kids
bomb 7/05/07
H moved out 8/04/07
11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling
Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D
End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing