Help... I need to stop reacting!

[Gardener]

rocked, Tough night, but at least the process started and is out in the open. Bravo for you having him do the explaining and you saying only "I want this marriage'

I don't know how much H heard. This a.m. he said, "well it sounds like the kids would handle a separation better than I thought". Of course he is still in his WAS fog. Right. He heard (and obviously observed -tears, etc - nothing) Fog-bound and delusional for sure.

I hope this had some impact on H. Who knows...

Very emotional evening. Makes it hard to find my PMA today. Keep looking. It's always there somewhere: kids' faces. sunshine, birds chirping , LIFE.

Have IC session today. Good timing. Definitely.

I still know I will be OK no matter what. Good Mantra. Keep saying it. It's true Just feeling heavy today. Understandably. You'll feel "lighter after IC, no doubt.