Going totally dark.... is this what you are saying????you make me sound pathetic......I dont ponder over him day in and day out....I only contact him out of concern ......concern that he may be alive or dead.....nothing else... this man he has become is mean and selfish ......I dont like that person very much....my daughter hasnt spoken to her dad in a very long time.....no one else had heard from him that is the only reason I emailed him.....and there was no relationship talk nothing just his heath and safety....I appreciate any advice and comments......