Is this the end of my marriage?

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But whatever reason your WW is after this guy (father figure you said?) it is more of an ESCAPE I BET than what she really wants.

A bit of excitement as married life became a bit too boring!

W was here tonight with my D. My D asked her at one point is she still loved her daddy and she said yes, but she wasn't in love with me (what an answer to give an 8 year old!).

I was making dinner and she came into the kitchen and just stood. It was getting awkward for me so I asked her how she was, how work was, how her mum and dad was, dog, cat etc. Everything was fine in fact she was deleriously happy. Probably the happiest I have ever seen her. I think maybe she was wanting to tell me something ... mind is running riot but pregnancy jumped into it (would make her deleriously happy!).

I also got some very bad news tonight about my mum. W didn't seem to interested, asked the right questions (would I be okay, what there anything she could do etc.) but didn't ask to come down and see her with me. She did ask if I would let her know if there are any changes and I said if she wanted me to. Again it was another night of nothing changing - looked like an old married couple (without the physical touching). She actually took something to eat from me tonight ... shock horror!

One good thing - she has made an appointment to see a solicitor so hopefully I can get the separation agreement sorted out.

My mum doesn't have long left to go (they think a few months). It hasn't sunk in at all as yet and all I can think about it how angry at my W I am for not even being interested in the woman she has known for 7 years or supporting the man she has loved for 7 years.

She left saying she would be back on Monday, told me to be careful going to my mum's (they are 300 miles away) and to let her know if there were any updates.

After her performance tonight, I don't think I can actually stomach Monday with her. I am very angry at her nonchalant attitude towards my mum being ill. I look at it from my point of view and I would want to be there to support 'somebody' (and especially somebody I had loved for 7 years) through a difficult time.

However I am very emotional tonight so I don't want to make any decisions. Still want to do NC though, and would prefer to start tomorrow but that would be making a decision on an emotional low.