Your previous post was very telling. It sounds as if you are still carrying a lot of childhood hurt and rejection. Possibly you will need to deal with that before you'll be able to heal from another deep wound that the divorce left you with. I assume your counselor already knows what you've written about here.
I know how hard it is to deal with the end of a marriage where we weren't allowed any choice but that of divorce. It must be much harder to feel as if you never had choices. The great thing now though is that you do. Once you've healed your life is whatever you choose for it to be.
I don't know your whole story but I think I've read enough to know that you have a lot going for you and that you have a lot to give. At some point we all have to take control of our lives and prove to those that have hurt and dismissed us wrong. Besides, you've already come through the tough stuff and you're still standing!
