Thanks for checking in. Well I haven't really contact my W for anything. In fact my 6y.o. D told her it was our Anniversary and she told my D that she "forgot". Unbelievable how insensitive she's become to my D's feelings.
Over the weekend, we saw each other at our D's soccer tournament. Since she couldn't be there the whole time, I suggested we all go out to dinner at Chuck E. Cheese. My W was a little reluctant but said 'okay'. While we were waiting at home, my D told her she wanted her to watch a special video with her. It was the video of our wedding. As she was getting it ready, my W got up and went into the other room to watch tv. Needless to say my D was very sad about my W's reaction. I told my D that mom wasn't ready for it and reassured her that mom still loved her.
I was pretty peeved and told my W about it yesterday. I told her that she's still acting like an insensitive child to our kids' needs and how her actions have shown that. She said she understood and that was that. I would never guess that the person who walks around in that body of hers is really her.
Meanwhile, my friend and I have been getting pretty close. No intimacy yet, but I told her that I've pretty much left everything up to God at this point and if we feel like we are getting closer (for the right reasons), then we'll take it to the next step.
I've been thinking long and hard about whether or not this is a rebound relationship. I don't think so and I've been prepping myself mentally and emotionally to see if this is what I really want to do. She's a great person and I really feel attracted to her. I've just been so emotionally drained by my W, that I don't have any "strong" feelings for anything. I do know that if I were single with I would have gone after this person in a heartbeat.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
