I didn't get enough sleep, but it was a start. S did sleep the entire night and slept great. I am just exhausted from being sleep deprived and being sick. My throat is still bad, but stomach is constantly doing better!

H text me this morning asking how I was. I responded. Then he sent me an e-mail (first in forever). It was a forward about teachers, but he sent it. smile Then he text me again at lunch to see how I was doing. It is nice! I hope this is will keep happening. I am going to take your suggestion Lucky and move out of DBing and into relationship mending. I have to start thinking about some of the other books I read and put them into action. Mostly giving away control, but that will be easier the more I see this is true.

With the OW part, I am 80% sure she has moved in with H, but I decided to stop focusing on that. Why should I be obsessing over her? She needs to be worried about me. H is spending more and more time texting, calling, and being with me. I need to think more that way instead of how upset I am that he may be sleeping in the same bed as her. He only sees her (if she moved back) from 8pm until they go to bed, and that is it. I get much more "time" with him so I need to focus on that. Foster my relationship with H so that she gets left in the dust. Realistically, I am pretty sure I am going to get hurt through all of this, but I have one king left and if I can take out his "queen", we will have a fighting chance.

Me29 S3
H left 4/1/09
I file 8/2/10
Divorce final 5/17/11
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