what's tough about all this is i've been able to connect the dots on things and it's tough because what sane person would do to another the things that she has done to me.
she asked me to leave originally, now it's turned into a kicked you out deal and she's using that as to why i have a better relationship with the kids. So she's angry, taking credit and being controlling.
so knowing the things she did were heartless and that's her ringtone now (I feel bad about that), but adding a little comedy to it.
dealing with a normal breakup, it's easier to have a bad attitude, knowing deep down, it's almost like an alzheimers sitch with her, makes it a little easier on me, but you still have to shake your head.
most people would not do this to someone else and they sure as hell wouldn't be so flipping mean about it.
i'm mad at myself for making mistakes early in this deal, now probably would've ended up in same sitch, but who knows.
it would definately be easier to be able to switch off like they do wouldn't it? Part of me likes the meaning of having the good to remember, but that also makes it pretty darn sad inside, too.
i missed an opportunity again last nite w/ her email to lay down a boundary, i ignored her sarcastic comment, probably should've gone back over the top, i'm sure i'll get another opportunity, then i need to set 'em up.
