Aw, thanks guys. That is reassuring to me. I feel like I have made some progress in the past few weeks in terms of my thinking about the whole thing. I feel at peace with it now, and I think you are right Al that it is a shame that he possibly will never feel that about the situation. It isn't to say I won't spiral again at times but at the moment it is so blissful to be calm.
Not much planned for the weekend. Friday night I'll probably go singing/ flirting with hot guy but mainly just singing Saturday I am visiting a friend that I haven't seen for ages and Sunday my Mum has offered to cook me a roast dinner - so I am there! Yum! Tonight they are switching on the Christmas lights near where I work and they always have a lovely market and
Saturday I am visiting a friend that I haven't seen for ages and Sunday my Mum has offered to cook me a roast dinner - so I am there! 
