Ok Go get yourself a glass of wine (or coco) this is my update… I am still “unemployed” officially but…. I have sold all of my firewood. I have a nice hunk of change in my desk drawer. in the past I used to give the money I made in my side business to my wife to help pay bills or what ever and then ask her for money when I needed it. This time I have given W money here and there for her use NOT expecting anything in return. So this is strange to me to have so much money at one time. The heavy sales are one of the reasons I have not been around to post lately. I would be out making a delivery and before I got home another call would come in. But as I said I only have one more cord out at the ‘wood lot’ and I have two in reserves on the side of my house. I still have some wood I need to cut up and split for next year. The GREAT news is that I only had two returning customers from the past. I lost allot of my customers last year when I had my hernia surgery so next year I will need twice as much wood to sell to keep these customers who all were very happy with my service. Also my son was sick with the flu for a week. We were lucky it was not the H1N1 type but still….. He is better now but W has been working allot with him on catch up school work. Ok now for what you have been waiting for… W and I have NOT had any R type talk. She still sleeps in her office... but….She has been really nice to me. I mean she is interested in what I am doing, Asks me questions about stuff I am involved in. and even paid me a compliment. One thing wife has been doing allot is when somebody’s picture is in the news paper and it says their age she looks at the picture and say’s “this woman or guy is only 49 years old and looks allot older than I do. I don’t look that old. (Wife is 55) This morning she said this but added “you and I don’t look that old” (I am 51). Here is the hard part for me. I need to keep my mouth shut and as Saffie would say.” let the OM go” but in my mind I answered her “how about the 61yo guy you slept with. Does he look that old”...Ya Saffie and OT I know at least I only said it as my son would say... “With That voice in my head” Oh Yea I have only lost a few pounds but I am loosing my ‘beer belly” I think loading all of this wood has slimed me up a little. Are things great? No but there is allot less stress right now. I have so many things going against me. I think if wife found a job that would really be a plus in her wanting to work on our R. She is being nice to me and seems to really be taking interest in what I am doing but I have been burnt Soooo many times in the past I am a little gun shy right now. The holidays are coming up and like I said things are really nice so I am going to just keep it on cruse control until January. Like I said I do like that part of me keeping the money I earned from my wood sales and giving parts of it to wife when she needs it instead of the other way around. I guess I have detached in that prospective. My son’s hard drive on his computer died so I gave W 100.00 to get him a new one. I kind of empowered me a little. Well I hope I have not bored ya all too much Nothing big happening but I guess when I look back two years ago... my W was so confused. She told me that she did not know if she had a future with the OM... She was calling him several times a day. (I kind of wonder if the OM knew what he was getting himself into when he cheated on his wife. I think he thought it was just going to be a easy one night stand... then my wife pulled a fatal attraction on him) Anyway I really don’t think she thinks much about him anymore. I think she now sees a part of me that she overlooked. An honest hard working guy that will do anything to save his family. Like I said I don’t want to take the chance and mess up the holidays so I am going to sit tight right now and after they are over I need to risk it and start in on my flirting again. I guess my perception of a “wife” has changed. I used to want someone to take care of me. I guess more of a mother than wife. Really don’t want a wife anymore. I have learned to take care of myself now I want a lover and hopefully she can and will fill that need…
Take care Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
