Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

Hey John, my Mum just said the same thing! (about it being an excuse for leaving and she didnt really buy it). I dont think he is blaming his parents for WHY he left. He has said there were problems in our R that year and also, his depression made him snap and not be able to view our problems as fixable, that he felt very negative and crazy and didnt know what he was thinking. He cant give a reason why he left, or why he dated Helen. I think people 'act out' unconciously when they dont feel happy or good about themselves.

Talking of astrology, my bf has his Sun and Moon in exact sqaure and his moon is at the critical 29th degree of a sign. All pretty dodgy!! To have your Sun (self, ego) squared to your Moon (emotions, inner self, soul).. is not great. Its like he's always 'at odds' with himself. A well known astrologer told me that having his Moon in the last degree, I could probably never really rely on him, he would always 'blow in the wind'. She was right, he has told me that things just seem to happen to him. Like dating Helen!

The guilt thing and shame led him to hate himself and not value himself and that made him run. He said last night its almost like he was self-destructive, sabotaging his own life because he didnt feel he deserved it. Its hard for me to understand, but I guess my bf is what could be called - a little bit f*cked up !!!!