So much for him doing a "nice" thing. I cried for more than an hour last night (two maybe?), and now my already-sore-from-being-sick head feels like it's been through a meat grinder.
I'm sure he is completely baffled that I didn't want to accept gratiously, and would be baffled to know the effect he still has on me (why isn't she over it yet? he11, he was able to get over 20+ years pretty quick...)
He has what he wanted...what does he really want and expect of me? I am not made of rock, and I am not a saint.
I know now that any future gesture he makes like this will be greeted with a Thanks but no thanks. I'm not setting myself up for another night like last night.
