Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Kevin,
I keep trying to type my explanation. In short, I think 9 months is sufficient for putting up with this bullshit.It has been 7.5 months since he moved out. WH is one of a kind but there has to be a limit at some point.I can't detach without NC.

I wouldn't be able to have true NC with WH unless I am willing to let OW see my son as much as WH would. I am NOT willing, therefore I am not able to detach.

Since I can't detach, it is painful and torments my heart and soul to live like this.It is getting hard for me to hold my head high and pretend I don't feel humiliated.

Divorce is the only way I can go NC I believe. He wants to take our son on overnight visit one day per week when he turns 6 months (January) and this is in the legal parenting plan that we drafted in March. I am not letting him take our son overnight unless I am legally required to. (selfish I know)

Hey if there is an alternative, I would be interested...