Thank you Wifey- that means so much to me. If I get stuck, I just may do that, but I think I should be OK. I am really touched by everyone's concern here. I certainly didn't expect it when I first posted and I am on the hook big time to pay it forward.
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can you entertain the possibility that your 'gut' feelings --that he WON'T be violent or manipulative or punitive or abusive or controlling or harrassing-- are messed up??
Bridge- I am pretty sure they are messed up. I am doing this on faith- I am trusting my best friend, my IC, my MC, and my friends here who say I am doing the right thing, and I'm also trying to trust my reasoning and not my feelings. If I have trouble with this basic issue, then I do have to consider that you may be right about H's reactions too. I will take the possibility into consideration for my plan for that weekend.
Right now, I feel weird, like I want to hide or something. I don't want to talk to anybody, I don't want to think about anything. I just want to handle as much of this by myself as I can. I know I can't do it all and that I'm going to have to involve a few other people- and tell my parents and the kids. I'm having a hard time trying to think about the logistics of the separation. This feels unreal.
