Grr...he hasn't done it yet. I started our convo by asking him about that. He said he didn't have it done, I asked if I needed to serve him, he said no, and then started in on the convo...
It was strange, he was crying and everything. As in, tears running down his face on to the table. He said that he felt me leaving him for a long time before he left me, that I wasn't the same woman he married. And I don't accept responsibility for his affair. But he is right.
All those moves, being away from friends and family, then becoming a mom, a stay-at-home mom, I was lonely, and a little bit lost. I knew I had always dreamed of getting to stay home. And I did love it. But at the same time, I was lonely for adult conversation. And having moved so many times, I had a hard time making friends. Especially when I didn't have a job to go to where I could meet people. So in a lot of ways, I know I did change. But it doesn't excuse his choices.
So back to the point...he said he was looking for me and I wasn't there (looking back I do remember some conversations/arguments we had where I can see that was the issue but I didn't see it then, long story)...
So then he says, "You weren't there, and I made some stupid, stupid choices. And now you are back..." At the end of the convo he said he was crying b/c he was sad at what had happened to us but also b/c he was happy that I was 'me' again...
IDK what to think. But I am not turning around and waiting for him. If he actually wants me, he knows what he would have to do to catch up to me.
On that note, IM'd with CMG (cute marathon guy) for the first time this evening. Our schedules don't line up to go out this week, and I have girl's weekend with my college roomie Fri-Sun. His response? "No rush, you have my interest and attention. :)" Then we both shared funny things we have encountered from others on the site.
Oh, and the good news is, he has NOT 1) Asked me if I am horny, 2)Told me that he woke up hard (and then asked if I wanted to see!!) 3)Used poor grammar 4)Sent me a shirtless pic
He is originally from Jersey (near NY) so I asked if he still had his accent (I actually like accents). He said it is mostly gone but some people think he says his 'a' differently...
OK my naughty Sydney just got out of bed at 10:30. Time to go chase her down!
