Still having trouble sleeping, wake up @ 4:30 with that anxious feeling, watch W get dressed and go to gym.
I have my first IC session today. I need to start focusing on me, and letting go of this. I realize that 99% of my backslides have been driven by fear, and that can only lead to bad things.
I feel my sitch has spiraled out of control since the Bomb. I know that most of that is due to my actions. I need to move out of victim mode and accept reasonability.
I know I must not let these emotions control me. I'm hoping IC will help me sort through some of them and start moving forward. I have been stuck in this pit for too long now.
Today is a new day to get it right. I will not stop until I do.
M: 30 W: 32 Married: 9 years s: 2.8 Bomb dropped: 7-10-09 same house, bed, no physical contact My sitch: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1871805&page=1
