Newcomer, want to keep my hope alive!

[iwantittowork]

I am just flat tired tonight. I have not had much energy to post, and have not even posted in some other peoples threads recently. Feeling a bit lonely as well, but that will pass, and tomorrow night I am going out with friends..

It's my SS 19th birthday today, so I called to wish him happy b-day, he's in Florida on his own now, but was good to hear his voice, and he sounded well. I am thankful for that, I know my STBXW told me that the SS's had issues with me, but I wanted to just see how he was making out on his own...

My best friend and his girlfriend had a baby today, and he was so excited. Brought back many memories of my d8 being born, and some tears for how things have gone for my family at this time. But, friend is doing well, you could tell he was excited!

Missed my d8 today, when I called she was in the shower, I told STBXW to have her call me back, but she didn't, not sure why..

BJ,

Thanks my friend, I am actually doing the things above that you mention. I understand that MA is the most stringent state now when child care/alimony are decided, so I'll need to come to acceptance. I am still waiting for the final number on the temp order, so I am trying to not live in the future. I don't know what things will look like yet, so can't make financial decisions.

Once I have those, I will meet with my L and make decisions on what I can do. I am looking at MA fathers rights groups, and information that may be able to help, and I will be evaluating my L as we go along.