Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

I understand lying is pretty universal for MLC and so is being secretive..maybe I should just not expect the trust to be rebuilt right now... seems premature given what I know. H's HS FB friend is texting him more frequently now-that kind of bugs me but I've said nothing..I'm just documenting the frequency for my own understanding of where H is in this...

D12 broke down last night and said she feels like H and I fight every night(this isn't my perception at all...its a blowup maybe once or twice a week..yelling only by H)..she hates that her dad is depressed and always blowing up. She would rather he moves out.

I wish in a way he would move out, but he can't afford it. I think it would worsen his depression and in a way hurt him beyond perhaps repair of this marriage. On the other had, the fact that he is home, although hard on the rest of us(and what MLCer isn't hard in some way on his family), but probably better for his mental health. Not sure about the marriage. I'm still here, standing, til I can no longer be.