Thanks BBJ. I suspect there will be tears shed tonight, but my niece informed me she is coming over later to keep me company. So I am going to let myself just be sad for a while. As cliche as it sounds, I am sad over the loss of the dream. I did not ever really expect this to happen. Part of me wants to tell stbx this, just in case he feels the same way and is too proud to tell me, but at the same time, I also realize that would do me no good and I would just come off as clingy.
Pretty soon there will be no more reason for us to talk, and I am sure in time we will fade into each others memories, and I will only think of him when I hear a song on the radio that reminded me of him. And, I will smile and remember a time when we loved each other, and be happy for that experience.
That is when I will be completely healed.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
