Took the decorations over to the shelter, they loved them and were so sweet. made me feel good to help someone smile. Stopped and got some more tea and came back for some much deserved r and r and goofing off on my games. Log into fb start reading and answering nsgs....saw yet ANOTHER one from my h. Seems he calmed down? or maybe he didnt, doesnt matter much. Was brief one liner again. Said he hoped I was having a great day. that was it. I didnt answer.
After being dark and having no contact with him for as long as I did, this is a lot of communication from him. Im not going to bother trying to figure out what he's thinking or feeling. I guess my question is, what do I do about it? he is still with HER, sees her almost every weekend and has the gall to mention her to me like its perfectly acceptable. Its NOT. I refuse to acknowledge her. I didnt marry HER. anyway....
I went dark to protect my own heart and so I could concentrate on my health which lets face it, isnt so great. He was causing me so much stress I couldnt get better, and actually got much worse. I dont really consider myself as still in dark mode because I have sent a couple of replies back, so im more ...dim than dark. Time time time keeps coming to my mind and to move slow and let him continue to initiate contact. Does anyone else feel or see that this is my best route for now? Ive read in some other sitchs that after going dark and the WAS starts contact again , they allow it, others dont.
Ok Im rambling, if anyone is able to make any sense of what I wrote i'll give you a cookie.
