can pursuing a WAS be a 180?

[avermont]

thanks, Cutterbug. That really helps a lot.

I don't know that I believe in myself at the moment. I am pretty well lost in the grief and pain right now, so just getting through the day is a challenge and a success enough. "wow--look, I didn't die."

Wow, opening up like this is such a 180. Kind of good, kind of painful. Like any change, I suppose.

thanks for rooting for me--keep it going!