That's why I'm questioning that "don't believe anything that they say and only half of what they do" statement too. They obviously have real feelings and thoughts too, so why wouldn't I believe him when he says "I resent you". Sounds real enough to me!
Yep, I feel like I only have my king left too, plus I'm in 'check' and only a few moves away from H annoucing 'checkmate'. (Or maybe I'm annoucing checkmate b/c I break & can't handle this anymore) One of the two and neither outcome is good. It's seems it's the hardest at the end of the game, b/c one wrong move & the game is over. Hmm, not sure what to do exactly. I did want I told myself I shouldn't do last night - I texted H. I said "Rough lunch today. I understand where you are coming from. Hopefully we can put that same argument behiind us now. Have a good night". I didn't want to stall the progress we were making by having a complete cease of communication, but I wasn't going to fight him anymore either. Not sure if that was the best idea, but now i've opened it up again, and the ball is in his court...I WILL NOT INITIATE ANY MORE CONTACT! (current strategy. At some point I hope this can be changed)
I just keep thinking about Friday and it hurts, but I can't control what I can't control. I'm going to try to sit back and let him continue to make baby steps and just try to support and encourage him along the way. I fear how much longer I can keep this up for, but I'm still here now and need to continue to be stong.
CTH - yes, definitely need to work on listening. I've recognized my fault now of needing to react and defend myself, but now I just need to follow thru when the situation arises to just listen and not fight back. He can't argue with himself, so I WILL NOT TAKE THE OTHER END OF THE ROPE. (these bold statements are the commitments I making to myself. I know I won't always be perfect, but I will try to hold to them).
Thanks guys. Have a good day!
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
