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[Treese]

Hello Everyone....I had to come here and vent again....

First so everyone knows...I did NOT call or text H about this..I'm at the point as to why...he doesn't really care anyway..and it would only get my blood boiling more, so I choose to suck it up and cry it out...

I was talking to D23 last night on the phone, just small talk about the wedding and all...I did ask if her dad sent her a birthday card and she said yes but he did not send her a gift...can get his GF a gift and go out of town but can't send his own D a gift..anyway...she didnt care...she then told me about the prescription order that she has to order through the mail....well when she ordered it a few months ago they had told her there was a balance of $100 on the acct. so I called...come to find out it belonged to H's love childs mother...the child has to take meds daily, so she orders it using H's ss number and doesn't pay for it...Apparently they are supposed to split it 50/50...just she is doing O.....so when D23 received her meds they did indeed charge D23's credit card for the $100.....she immediately called and they did credit her....she said the paperwork that came with it had the mother's info on it....I was ticked....that is like a slap in the face to D23..a reminder of a 10 yr old child she doesnt know...and what her father did...she said she was going to call her....and wow, I would not want to be on the other end of that conversation....D23 was hot!!!

I could have texted H right away and chewed him out but I didn't.....I cried instead....not because I care about what H thinks but because my children are paying the price...

I'm not sleeping worrying about money....H's pay just seems to be decreasing....

I know everyone here says they feel bad about the pain their H's are in but I have to say....I don't see any pain in my H AT ALL!!! He has not changed a bit in the past 2 years...he's still in lalaland with OW...in his nice big house with no bills, no responsibilities....with everything he says he's ever wanted....that I'm the person he always thought I was....he meant that in a mean way...when I saw his face when he said that I was stunned....I had nothing to say...I don't bother him, don't call him..he doesnt' call to ask about the kids, how they're doing in school...etc...I just take care of it....why? Because I'm their mom, I"m the sane one....

I really try not to give him space in my head...but when things like this happen and it involves my children...well, he knows not to mess with my kids.... .

PHEW....I feel better now.....going out with friends tonight...thanks for letting me vent....

Treese