Sad to be here

[Norm914]

Another day. My therapist said I should journal so I thought it might be good to do it here. I trying to overcome the “what good will that do?” feeling and just do it. Sometimes you should do what others advise even when at the moment you don’t understand why they are telling you to do it. Even when it seems pointless.

I read the threads. So much heartache. It’s hard to get out of bed. Hard to start the day. Hard to just put one foot in front of the other. But I know that is what I have to do.

It seems to me that right now a lot of what I should do is about loving myself. That’s a new concept for me and I’m taking baby steps in learning how to do it…one day at a time. I feel like such a mess.