Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
Sorry Think, we will add to our prayer list as well.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
Hugs for you and your entire family. I lost my own mom to C and it wasn't easy.
Last edited by orangedog; 11/17/0906:47 PM.
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh
OK--you're at a year. I am at 7 months. Almost similiar situation to you. Although you have been much more patient than me with your wifes behavior.
I am: -tired of acting happy -tired of watching her buy a new wardrobe so she can feel 25 again -tired of watching her go out till 3am with her new single/divorced male and female friends -tired of her just being hurtful to me in so many ways. -tired of sleeping on the couch(I can't sleep with someone who doesn't love me) -tired of having that big argument that somehow ends up within earshot of our sons and watching them implode at the thought of us divorcing.(I do try to walk away) -Tired of defending myself that i worked too hard, went to grad school and she was lonley 12 years ago, didn't dress hip enough, didn't play with the kids enough when they were babies, you name it, I did it wrong over the last 15 years of marriage. -Tired of living in a loveless, sexless marriage. -Tired of explaining to our kids why mommy and daddy more or less live separate lives under the same roof. -Tired of her drink 4 glasses of wine a night, take her antidepressants and sleeping pills so she can sleep.
We finally got to marriage counseling a few weeks back to learn how to communicate better when we divorce. She doesn't understand why I can't be her friend, why we can't buy houses next door to each other. She wants this to be a tv show divorce like "everybody loves christine"
The w says she can't file now because she is saving her money to get an attorney. How noble of her. So now I must wait for her to make enough money to divorce me.
I just want to be whole again. I want peace. I want my kids to be happy. I want this to end. I feel it is almost to a point where she can't do it and wants me to do it. I have given everything I have had to make this work and it just keeps getting shoved back in my face. Everytime I think I have detached, i find that it hasn't happened and won't happen until we are in separate houses.
Thinker, when will it be enough for you? I am getting to the end of my rope and just want it over. How much can I guy take before he just has to move on. I have been strong for my sons, however, this is something that can't go on forever....
Remarried 6 mo S 12 S 13 S 16 SD 12 SD 16 SD 17 SS 19
