Just journaling. Back to work. Tuesday shower revelation. I'm not facing an EA or a PA with W. I'm facing a CA -- a conceptual affair. She keeps searching on Google and Facebook for her one serious boyfriend before we met.
Turns out he may be a doctor in a Chicago suburb. So that's close enough to dream about, but far away so that it's not right there to risk rejection.
In a way, that's worse. She has this dream of a relationship to think about rather than our failed M.
Just another realization that W's thoughts won't be turning my way for a long time, if ever.
Two things for me. I have lunch with a commercial Realtor who went through a divorce four years ago. We talked on the phone for an hour last week and it was a revelation. When I first talked to her two years ago, she came off as a total nutcase.
She was in the midst of recovering from her D.
Nothing serious Awest or Lucky. Just lunch. I just need more people to talk to.
Second thing, back to the CA. It makes me all the more determined to seek joint physical custody if we get to that point. Let's assume the worst-case scenario -- that she reconnects with this guy and wants to relocate there with the girls. No way I'm going from seeing them almost every day to an every other weekend dad.
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
