Coping with Bi-Polar WAW

[CountingCrows]

Sunday night, W spent until nearly 2am texting with OM. She texted me at about 4:30am to let me know that she was not able to sleep and to call her at 7am to make sure she was up to come over and see s7 off to the bus. She was over Monday morning for him, obviously exhausted, but actually showed s7 a little more attention than usual. He's been problems focusing on his school work, and we had both worked with him on his advanced reading stuff over the weekend.

S7 came home yesterday very proud that he had received 100% on the testing of the books that his mother and I had worked with him on. After he finished his homework for Monday, I rewarded him with a "Family Movie Night", where we put blankets/pillows down in the living room, popped some popcorn and watched a really good animated movie together. Didn't hear anything from W all day. It was the 15th anniversary of the day we "got together".

Checked W's call records this morning. Noticed a change in W's call/text patterns yesterday. After spending all Sunday night texting with OM, she had limited contact with him throughout Monday. It was mostly incoming messages/calls from him. She seemed to be replying briefly and the voice calls were very short (less than 3 minutes). There was a big gap from the time she got off work at 7:30pm until nearly Midnight when he texted her twice without a response from her. Trying not to read anything into it, but just noticed the pattern change.

W goes to IC this morning. Wrote her a check to cover the co-pay expense, as I agreed to do. Was glad to hear she hadn't stopped going, as I wasn't sure she was still seeing C. I'd love to be a fly on the wall to hear W's version of what went down this weekend.

Trying to spend lots of time with s7. Been back in contact with several friends that I've lost touch with over the years. Was invited to a Thanksgiving get-together for people from my old high school the Saturday after TG. Will do everything I can to attend, as I could use the socializing, and it would be a good chance for s7 to spend the night with W.

I'm a tall thin guy, and I've had serious appetite problems these past weeks. I'm force feeding myself as often as possible to keep from losing too much weight, even to the point of adding Ensure Plus (350 calories!) and nutritional bars to my diet, in between my normal meals. Also starting back on 100 Pushups (http://hundredpushups.com/) program that I started this summer, but had to quit because of shoulder problems. Wish it wasn't getting dark about the time I get home at night, or s7 and I would start walking each night.

This morning, W showed up on time. Told her about s7's grades yesterday and that we had a movie night. Kept the conversation brief and focused on s7 and about our pets. She has a ferret that she hasn't been able to move to her apt. I love the ferret and don't mind taking care of her. I mentioned to W that I would like for her to clean the ferret's cage, but that she could keep her at home, since it would be next to impossible to have her at her apt. W also has a very sickly cat that we've been discussing euthanizing for months. We agreed this morning that we would do this very soon, and that we didn't want the body because we don't want s7 to have to go through the burial process. He had just done this in January with a beloved Pomeranian, and it was very hard on him.

Stepping up my efforts at work. Yesterday went by very fast, as I had a lot going on, and was able to focus a little better on my tasks at hand. Hope to keep up this trend, as I'm only a contractor (been with them almost 4 months), and really want to be hired on as a full time employee.