Yes. It is disheartening. But that is your life today. That doesn't mean it'll be your life six months from now.

If your M doesn't make it, there may be chances to move closer, and perhaps you could fight for joint physical custody eventually.

Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11
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