It's perfectly normal. Cycling is very normal in these sitches. Where you are at, anger is because you are getting frustrated, you see once we find DBing and we get our hopes up. Hopefullness replacess helplessness, but then usually, it takes time and we are not prepared for that. So, anger creeps in because their response is not as we thought it would be and not as fast as we wished.
I would not suggest to avoid anger. On the contrary, go thru it, stay away from your H (if you have regular contact) and try to figure out what is hurting you. As my C says, Anger is not a primary emotion, it really goes down to fear. So, you are afraid you've lost him?
Stay strong, we dont know what may happen in the future. All can do is live our present best way we can(note to self:read it twice)! K
