Help Lost my Bestfriend Need Advice

[Deep]

Hi, sorry for your pain and glad you found this place.

As usual, puppy hit the right starting notes. You need to think about what you want, what kind of M you would live with, and have some clarity before even thinking of how to communicate with your H.

With respect, you sound very much in the deepest pain cycle of being an LBS, and I think you have some work to do in that area first.

And for what it's worth, what you described is the classic EA OW. It gives dealing with what is happening a different dynamic.

Be strong in the meantime and I'm sure you're going to get some great advice and support from here.