Ugh..dday, this is a bad day..I don't know why I just suddenly feel like I should give up and face the fact he doesn't want any more to do with me than a friendship. I can't help but like how things are going and it gets my hopes up a bit and then things like my birthday I described above happens. Tonight I went to his place to pick up our s and we stared talking about the new job I just got (yay!) but it doesn't have health insurance. In my field I can't seem to find anything more than PT or hours that split so they don't have to give you health insurance. I'm a Dietitian. They've been cutting Dietitians workloads everywhere! Anyway, I told him I have state health insurance because of my s for now and I can be on that for a while. I also told him that even though I'm single now, you never know, I could meet someone that would like to have a life with me, I mean not now, because I'm not interested in a R, but in the future..and that I don't intend on being single for the rest of my life. Seriously, the way the conversation took place, it didn't sound like I was asking him to make a decision about me, it was just like one friend talking to another. He has a work Xmas party coming up, he didn't invite me to..he does other things and doesn't include me and I'm just feeling like maybe I should back out of the Thanksgiving Dinner and let him go with our s. I'm not in a good place right now, I feel very sad...
