I agree with searching. This sounds like cake-eating behavior to me. Also, I don't think he would initiate MC and scheduling dates if he had no feelings at all toward you. Your H sounds a bit like mine, except mine has had 2 OW. I am trying to go dim, not dark. Perhaps that may work for you and knock your H off the fence. The others here are better at this than I, but I just wanted to tell you that you are not alone.
Me - Faithful wife H - WAH Bomb: Fall/2009 - PA/EA with OW for 1 year Both in our early 40's M - 16 years w/ no kids T - 21 years Separated since July of 2008 - H living with his mother