Thanks, all.
I re-read this, and I know it sounds like I am in the bowels of depression, again - surprisingly, I'm not. I think it was more observation, problem-solving...
rather than feeling stuck and frustrated, I am refocusing on what to do about it.

I am getting back to basics, going back to some of the work I've done in the past (CBT stuff).
I refuse to get derailed again...