BTM. If you love her that much and she really truely is happy without you. Let her go find this out.
As for the xmas party. Why not just skip it this year. Unless you need it due to sales stuff.
I think the space apart will do both of you a world of good. Your both hurting. First 2 weeks are going to be bad. But after that it gets better and better.
Who knows you may actually begin to heal and truely GAL and improve yourself. Allow your wife the chance to do this as well. Loving detach and be positive about yourself and your life.
Cutter - I need to go to that party without my WAW. It will do me good. I have to be forced to GAL.
I am hoping that the time apart really will help us both. She has not drank in 4 days, but needs to get that under control. I honestly think she truly does need some time away from me if there is any hope of forgiveness for the times I disrespected her sexually - the worst of which I have told about here, but there were others.
She feels pressured by me when we are together. I did such a crap job of dbing over the last 2 months, that I literally pushed her out the door.
I may always have the fear that we will never put our life together again, but I have to stop allowing that to control my actions.
