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[dday101798]

Well, for a overcluttered mess that never seems to end, 2 words:

napalm strike

As far as the lonliness and overwhelming moments: I've learned in time they will become shorter and shorter until you finally reach the point where you stop yourself from ever geting to far into it and ask 'what's the point of going there'? Seriously for second, have you noticed a pattern yet where your down moments ARE getting shorter and less frequent?

[mishka422]

They are shorter but no less frequent. It's been nearly 2 years so obviously I should be over this crap by now! It really makes me angry with myself that I can't seem to get myself together enough to live fruitfully.

I'd love to volunteer, but I work too many hours a week and taking care of Marc and mom doesn't leave me any time.

I belong to a wonderful church and I attend a women's bible study on Tuesday nights. It's great, but it ends tomorrow and the next one doesn't start until January. It's always sad when a study ends.

I think I'm going to step away for a while. I sometimes wonder if sticking around the boards keeps all the pain fresh in my mind and is holding me back. It's a very real possibility.

[dday101798]

I think I'm going to step away for a while. I sometimes wonder if sticking around the boards keeps all the pain fresh in my mind and is holding me back. It's a very real possibility.

Understood, been there done that.

[ernest88]

I think that until you figure out that there is no specific reason "why" your marriage ended...then you will continue to spin...you will continue to have bouts of loniness..you will continue to do what you are doing.

I know that sounds like the blame is laid all on you..but that's not where i'm coming from..

you are responsible for how this goes now..you are divorced..your life is yours to live and do as you please..Gabes only part in any of this has to do with Marc..you control how much you talk to gabe..you control how you react to him and the "ho"...

bottom line Mish...this is not your fault..stop beating yourself up....

it's time to break away..move forward, stop being scared...

you can do this..ya just gotta want to do it..

you go to church?? well next time you go...hit the alter...lay this stuff there and leave it

you ever see CG anymore?? you need to surround yourself with people you have fun with, positive people and that includes the people on this board..get out of newcomers if your over there...Newcomers is just too much sometimes...

it is what you make it..

[MichelleLT]

I used to pile all my clean laundry on XH's side of the bed. It wasn't quite as lonely that way lol.

Plus it's awesomely warm and snuggly straight out of the dryer.

[bright_new_day]

I sleep in the middle!

[kat727]

You could always join a book club. Ours meets once a month. I am reading several books that I normally wouldn't look twice at. Some are good, others not so much but it is a couple hours out with other adults!

I should start that movie night back up...maybe in December. What type of movie are you up for? I have to check the basketball schedule but other than that I should be good.

kat

[MichelleLT]

I love the movie night idea. It seems like you guys had so much fun doing that. I will have to try and get in on that if you do.

My wonderful hectic unpredictable schedule at my second job allowing lol.

[kat727]

Hey it can always be a Saturday afternoon type thing too. Karen and I had a good time with it. Our guys kind of dropped off but not because of chick flicks just stuff going on...I hope! We could also say watch the moviwe this week and post your comments on this day which would allow for hectic lives.

kat

[mishka422]

I know I said I was stepping away for a bit to try to screw my head on straight and get past this slump. I'm sure a lot of it has to do with 'the anniversary' coming up tomorrow anyway. There is something I have to put out here that absolutely made my day and will make Marc's Christmas.

An early Christmas Angel, in the form of a package delivered by UPS, was delivered to my house this afternoon. Inside was a complete Wii system, a Wii Fit Plus, and an extra controller. You have no idea how this bowled me over! My angel(s) is here reading this I know and I want to tell you that there are not any words I can use to thank you for such an amazing, generous gift. I have been crying in joy ever since I opened that package and saw what was inside. Such love and kindness will not go unrepaid if only in good works given to others.

Blessings to you. I know that Marc and I are certainly blessed and overwhelmed by the kindness we are shown by people that we haven't even met in person.