I noticed as I was driving in to work this morning that the more time goes on, the better I become.
The stronger I become, my wants becomes a little more clearer by the day.
The haze is slowly being removed from my line of vision.
I realized that I no longer allow this to consume my every waking moment.
I can go most of the day and not even think about what H is doing and when I do touch that, the pain is becoming a little less each day.
I know in my heart H isn't happy however I can't control that, I can't fix it nor do I want to.
This is his mess and while I still love him, I don't care anymore what he is doing.
I have my God, my family, my friends, my Church, my job, some new hobbies, a life full of endless possibilities and I will no longer allow him to take that from me.
Today I am taking back my control, my self-respect, my life.
I still believe that H and I will come out of this with a better, stronger marriage however in the meantime, I will continue to push forward towards whatever God has on the horizon for me.
God has blessings with my name on them and it is high time I go get them.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
