Good days are coming...one way or the other. Did you spoil her...I am positive of that. Right or wrong.......there isn't really an answer for that. You did what your heart wanted to do during those times....and that is what matters at the end of the day.
Let's look at the reality of life...shall we. You put your wife on a pedestal for many years and now she probably hates you for it. I did the same with my wife.....but let's look at what has happened with my wife as she looked for something better. She was cheated on, emotional abused, mentally controlled, and finally physically abused by OP1. OP2 tried to just use her for sex and when that didn't happen..OP was gone. OP3 tried to use her for sex by buying her out....rumors have that turned into an ugly fight at a bar. OP4....just disappeared without a word. Yet my wife has said I offer no security....Hmmmmm. Experience will show that I am the better option. I know that I am the better option and getting better every day (Thanks DB-world...lol). So are you the better option? Give her space and let her find out.