as we move forward II

[Treese]

I agree with all of you...It is amazing how unaffected they all are..how they go on with life like they are having the time of their lives...I personally don't think my H will ever hit bottom..He has a way of burying it wayyyyyy down...just as he did with his "love child" for 9 years....didnt even flinch all those years...never showed he was worried I'd find out...my what an actor he was...that's why I don't think he will ever crash..he's GOOD at all this....he always tells me he's callused to all my crying that I did and me in general..he didnt care that I cried so much...it was the death of my marriage for heaven's sake...

I would ask him just what is being "in LOVe"...his response was...."it's where you can't wait to be home with your partner...wanting to talk to them, missing them.." ...basically everything he was feeling for OW....that hurt because I did miss HIM...I did share everything with HIM...

but....the OW he had the child with, he is no longer with, told me that affair lasted a while....now off to a new one...

it's amazing what the "tuck" away....

I have not "SEEN" my H since July.....it's definately the calm before the storm...but I think I'm ready....