So it is as GIMA and I have been discussing...it seems that while you are there, being a loving and supportive spouse, they don't want you. They just want you to leave....but if you walk away, they start to panic.
Yeah, it's a real brain-twister. Weird, weird WAS-logic: Availability=undesirability; unavailability=desirability
And as you note this morning, it simply pretzel-twists our LBS brains even more, because desirability is, well, desirable:
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Having a rough morning - strong connection yearnings...Got up and went to the gym just to get out of there....Fighting to stay detached.
I wish I could tell you that it gets easier, but it doesn't. Not really. It gets more familiar, and so in that sense easier to do, but not easier to experience. Which is, in a way, a good thing -- I mean, it at least reaffirms that what you felt and experienced during the Happy Time was real.
When WAW Herself and I were at the parent-teacher last Friday, she crossed her legs -- bare, as always -- and her pump sort-of slipped off her heel. I was nearly overcome with the urge to simply run my index finger down the back of her calf, under her heel, and along the arch of her foot. Powerful sensation -- half-listening to The Boy's teacher, I could nearly feel what it (would have) felt like. Wow. And here I've been dead for 6 months or more and living la vida Miss Someone since August.
Fortunately we're at each other's throats again, so that feeling has passed, LOL.
