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[awest1217]

Yes, and no. I always have fun with my family and friends, but lately once they leave I am really down. I don't want to say I am depressed, but I am emotionally drained. One weird thing is H, S, and I went out to dinner Friday night. H's little brother was at the restaurant, and he gave me a hug. This is weird because he hates me. He tells his x-gf all the time how much he hates me so it was weird (I am good friends with his X). Right now...

S has a really stuffy nose so he and I did not sleep at all last night (I mean we would get an hour in then wake up and so on because he could not breath.)

I have a horrible sore throat

My stomach is doing a little better :), but once in a while it will flare up and I still am getting dizzy

I am starting a new trimester today with almost 30 in every class so I have to be stuff and don't have that strength, plus I will have to talk all day today...not good for the throat.

I constantly feel just like breaking down and crying.

Really not doing well at all. I am not talking to H because as always I did not hear from him because I am his "week" wife (my nickname not his). I am so sick of this situation. The holidays are coming and I am tired of having to fight for my relationship. I have been competing against other girls for years and I am sick of it! H plays me and OW all the time, although he won't admit it.

I am sure it is just lack of sleep and sickness talking, but I am drained and honestly have nothing left. Everything I have I must use on me and S so I guess H and our R is going to have to be let go...