Not Me...Ever part 2

[Gardener]

Hey, where's my Serenity (and her serenity) tonight?
I'm exhausted, going to bed early and need my nightly Serenity visit!

[Serenity13]

(((Gardener)))

I am here after a long though good day - I am sorry I didn't get the message to go see Spy but I will shortly. I hope your raking was complete and you had a great day...

I went to Church today and was in complete peace, hung out with my little one for a bit, watched my Cowboys lose and then my sister, a friend and I went to see 2012. All in all a good day.

How are you tonight?

I read your letter to kids - Nice job my friend.

[orangedog]

Thought of you as I drove past a street called "Serenity Circle" today.

[Serenity13]

O'dog ~

I love your one sentence posts and how in just a few words you always come across so sweet

I need to learn how to be a woman of fewer words - My posts and responses are getting longer by the day lol.

(((Hugs)))

[TrentC]

Good to see you are doing well Serenity.

[Serenity13]

Trent ~

Thank you and right back at you - Was just getting caught up on your most recent posts - You are doing wonderfully - Keep it up!

(((Hugs)))

[orangedog]

Thank you.

[Gardener]

Serenity,

(((Gardener)))

I am here after a long though good day - I am sorry I didn't get the message to go see Spy but I will shortly. I hope your raking was complete and you had a great day...

I went to Church today and was in complete peace, hung out with my little one for a bit, watched my Cowboys lose and then my sister, a friend and I went to see 2012. All in all a good day.

How are you tonight?

I read your letter to kids - Nice job my friend.

I am fine, thanks. Up early today. Good sign: I've been seriously oversleeping (late) recently. Glad you had a good day. I did, too. Thanks for your thoughts on my Q to Greek. Thanks re: the stepkids letter, too. Usually with something like that I write, rewrit, rewrite ad nauseam. This one came out good first draft, so I hit "send' real quick before I changed my mind.
((()))

[Gardener]

O'D,

Thought of you as I drove past a street called "Serenity Circle" today.

Ha!
Personally, I think there is a Serenity Circle (aura, force field) around Serenity that protects her. Probably her Faith.

[Serenity13]

Good Morning Gardener ~

Hope this finds you well today...

All is good here...

I noticed as I was driving in to work this morning that the more time goes on, the better I become.

The stronger I become, my wants becomes a little more clearer by the day.

The haze is slowly being removed from my line of vision.

I realized that I no longer allow this to consume my every waking moment.

I can go most of the day and not even think about what H is doing and when I do touch that, the pain is becoming a little less each day.

I know in my heart H isn't happy however I can't control that, I can't fix it nor do I want to.

This is his mess and while I still love him, I don't care anymore what he is doing.

I have my God, my family, my friends, my Church, my job, some new hobbies, a life full of endless possibilities and I will no longer allow him to take that from me.

Today I am taking back my control, my self-respect, my life.

I still believe that H and I will come out of this with a better, stronger marriage however in the meantime, I will continue to push forward towards whatever God has on the horizon for me.

God has blessings with my name on them and it is high time I go get them.