I plan on staying involved. Im sure now I can help others with mistakes I have made, and I'll most probably still have my ups and downs for a while, but I think the downs will be fewer. I've accepted what has happened, and I think thats been one of my biggest issue.
I still want to be friends with W (do I still refer to her as W or is she Ex W now? dunno). I want her to be happy and I want to be involved as much as possible with our son. She has just agreed to let me take him to Fiji in Jan, so I'm pretty happy. I can't wait. He'll love it as well (might be weird for him not having his mum there though). I gave her the option of coming along, but she declined. It doesn't bother me, but would of been nice for our son. I won't cancel her flight in case she changes her mind later. I'd rather loose the $500 odd dollars and give her the chance to be there with our son if she wishes. Yes, it would of been a nice opportunity for us to re-build our friendship, but we can still do that regardless is she decides to come along. If she does, I have absolutely no intention on trying to work on things. She has made it clear what she wants, and I have accepted it. I guess I accepted it when she told me that she was happier without me. There is no way I can deny her happiness, even if it means it is without me.
