You are normal, hon, especially with the date from h*ll happening. How about you just make some good friends and not even try dating for a while. Take the pressure off yourself.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.